So..

... Life continues throwing punches, sometimes missing, sometimes hard in the face... No matter where you are.
I knew that. Of course I did.
But that doesn't make me feel less shitty.

Granted, I've been avoiding punches altogether, being so busy.
Having a demanding aunt, cousin and father do work to keep you too busy to think, too busy to feel. When they are out by themselves, like now, and the whole house is quiet, I feel quite at loss, or catch a punch.

I'm a bit hesitant about what to do next. I want a lot, but all I want seems to require either money, experience, or both. I can't pluck either from the street, or from the trees in our garden, so I don't know. Also, if I showed the list of things I want to my parents, and let them tick off what they don't want, the list would be empty. My uncle asked me about how it would be in the opposite way. Their list of wants would also be discarded by me..

I'm wondering why that is. Why it is that their wants do not sound unreasonable, and that many children would agree with them, yet they feel not right for me. What I want is also not that unique, and many parents would agree just fine, only mine are being overprotective or controlling. (Mum being the former, Dad the latter)

Enough rambling.
Time to convert negative to positive energy.

I need a battery,a magnet and some wires.

xxx
The Gypsy

Busy Please

My eyes burn xD
Lack of sleep, lots of wind and lenses tend to do that, eh?
Back to wearing glasses a few days till they get a fair share of rest.
Don't want to ruin them, I like being able to see xD

Been busy, mainly the last two days.
Yesterday, much fun: We went to Deventer, visiting my favourite relatives ♥♥♥
Had to take my Egyptian relatives with us though (bugger xD) but I meanly enough spent most of the time talking and joking in Dutch. Didn't care much to explain either, I'm tired of having em around 24/7 by now.
Anyways, my uncle wasn't there yet, he was visiting Tamara in hospital after work and before coming, else she wouldn't have had any visitors that day. Just his wife (Ineke), Suzanne and her boyfriend Jelco for a while. Totally cosy, at that. Unc came later on, then Tamara's boyfriend Rick joined us after dinner (end of the day) for a short while.
I can't tell you what we did, because basically it was very little other than talking. One thing is good to know, though: their offer still stands, I can run away from home and stay at their place at any given time xDD
Even though I wouldn't run away, that still is good to know.

Today sis went to her work for the first time ever. Might have felt a small jealousy twinge there, seeing as I've been looking for work harder and longer than she has, and I still can't find anything. Not that I think that she can't work if I'm not, or something.

We didn't stay at home, but went to Rotterdam, the Netherland's biggest Haven, and at some point the biggest haven of Europe (not anymore.. and if you have noticed, it's the last of the big cities one should visit in Holland I listed a few posts earlier. xD)
Basically went there to get tickets for Saturday :D But we just took a really long walk too.. First meditation peace and quiet in almost three weeks.. Lots to think about, after yesterday's talking.. Not that it's any less confusing now, but eh.
I'll upload the pictures asap.. Not feeling like it right now.
Eyes still burning :P

xxx
The Gypsy

Warhammer

*Squeel* I have my own goblin!
I picked it out and I could paint it and I got compliments about it too!!!
From professionals, mind, not just anyone 8)
What am I talking about? Warhammer. xD
(For those who do not know what I'm talking about still, it's a game. You collect an army you glue together yourself, you paint them, and then you fight with them. There's three games to choose from: Fantasy Warhammer, Warhammer 40,000 (which is a futuristic one), and a Lord of the Rings game (which had the most pretty creatures).

(I edited it from World of Warcraft because I was chatting about WoW minutes prior to writing this... And with my stupid head it just stuck)



























That's where I was today, with a friend of mine, Ralf.
He's been addicted to that game (Fantasy Warhammer) for nearly a year now, or maybe even longer, I can't recall.
He's always talking to me about it online, but somehow to see it in real life it's really different.
And reading about it on the site just isn't the same as when it gets told to you by someone's who is (maybe over-) passionate about it, and has been playing it for 15 years (David, guy in the games workshop) xD I'd go nuts if I played the same thing for fifteen years, even if it gets new stuff every half year. I thought I was a fanatic when Harry Potter or Pirates of the Caribbean are concerned, but those people in that workshop just beat me with their obsession. Foreals. But it was awesome, I couldn't rub the grin off my face.
Deamonettes, Dark and Wood Elves are my favourites. Not only do they look prettiest, they also seem to be pretty difficult to beat, and have a lot of magic :3

This is the first day I've actually been out by myself, without any family to chaperone or tag along, and it's been the only really peaceful day in two weeks now. Up till I came back home, that is.
Yay for today.

Cheers,
xxx
The Gypsy.

Pictures.

Okay, So I had already mentioned we went to Den Haag, nay?
We also went to Utrecht whilst visiting my cousin in hospital,
which leaves Amsterdam and Rotterdam and we would've covered the most known/important cities of the Netherlands.
Now all that is left is Rotterdam.
Amsterdam was teh coolest. Even without spacecake.
Rawr

PICTORS:


*sings*
Oh oh Den Haag
dumdiedum achter de duinen
Lol.
Hah. We did not actually agree on this pose xD
Me and my cousin, that is.

Yes, that's right. It's all your fault.

-*-*-*-


Amsterdam, sweet Amsterdam.
Or something.
Very crowded and hot Amsterdam,
if you ask me.



Click to enlarge and actually note the OCEAN of bikes. ;D


They ate out of my hand!!! x3

It's a palace. Foreals.

Aaaaaand then!!!
*beats drums*
We went to Madame Tussaud, a Wax Museum thingy.
Awesome. Totally.

LOL Lets see.
Quick visit to the Vatican?
I don't think so.
Got a picture with the Pope anyways.
Hah!

This is a puzzle. Quiz.
Guess game. Thing.

Pick the waxen doll in the picture.
xDDD

Sorry. I'm just mean like that.





Ah. Yes.
Gotto love Ghandi.
No.
Foreals.
Good guy.











*Hums* I'm too sexy for this shirt, too sexy... on the catwalk... dum dum...Uhm.
Lets see. Oh yes! This Awfully Fantabulous Gay Guy gives me a hat and a boa, calls me darling, beautiful and fantabulous, and tells me to get the hell on the catwalk for some awesomely possum pictures.
Sure, honey xD














*Deep voice*
Thank you.
Thank you very much.
8D















Rawk on 8)















Yes, me in bed with Robbie Williams.
No. I did not pay him.
What do you take him for?!
xDDD

Wait.
Maybe you're right. xD
[/snarky]










Soooo.
tell me George.
What's on your mind?
;D








Sis with Brangelina ;D
They didn't look so real in Wax,
but the picture is surprisingly cool xD














Bro and Nicholas Cage.
Do I really have to name everyone?
Wax looks quite real, dunnit?
















Me and Cous painted with the famous Mona Lisa.
Da Vinci is a genius ^^










Spiderman saved meeee!
Well, not really.
But I'm just as good as a photographer as he is.
Taking that and looking like I'm not taking that ;)
You figure it out. :3












Aaaaand, last, and definitely most important (to me anyways), the one and only person I'm actually a fan of, from Hollywood. Johnny Awesome Depp.
Fell in love with him as Sparrow.
Wanted to take that wax body of his home.










These are only a few of the pictures we took (!) and we saw a lot more celebrities.

Amongst them, to name a few, were Lenin, Gorbachov, The Whole Dutch Royal Family (aka the Queen Beatrix, the crown prince Willem Alexander, his wive Maxima, the deceased old-queen Juliana and her mother, queen before that, Wilhelmina), Princess Di, Mandela, J.F.Kennedy, Bush, Barack Obama (took a group picture at the entry we had to pay for, v.i.p) of the politicians/royalty...

Then there was a department for Dutch Fame only, Annie M.G. Schmidt, Jamai, Jim, Gordon, K3, Marco Borsato, Jan Smit, Ali B, Herman Brood, Vincent van Gogh, Rembrandt van Rijn, Gerard Joling.... etc.. If you know any of these names (besides the painters =P ) you probably be dutch xD

There were singers, like Micheal Jackson (which was eerie enough, seeing as he just snuffed it. He did have lots of flowers at his feet, though. Last tribute thingy for fans, I guess) David Bowie, Prince, Bono, James Brown...
Then a section of sport, with David Beckham, Ronaldino and Lance Armstrong to name a few.

Then came Hollywood: Cage, Depp, Clooney, Pitt, Jolie are those you saw in the pics, but there was also Oprah Winfrey, Tom Hanks, Whatshisface of the new Bond movies, Pierce Handsome Brosnan, Sean Fantabulous Connery, Julia Roberts and I'm sure I'm leaving people out xD
Charlie Chaplin was there, as were Kylie Mynogue, Beyonce and Marilyn Monroe...

I took pictures of most of them, but I was out of energy to upload them all.
If anyone wants to see a specific someone I mentioned and didn't post a picture of, feel free to ask me to post it. If not... well, your loss =P

That's it, wanted to post pictures more than talk, really.

xxx
The Gypsy

This and That.

Today is the first day I've actually felt completely satisfied about my whereabouts and activities since I've been here.

My Egyptian cousin and aunt have been here a week now, and I've been acting through out. Literally. Acting cheerful, acting as a maid, acting as a tourist guide, acting as a translator, and acting as company. If I'm not acting, I'm sleeping.

Till today, all we did besides visiting the petting zoo once is "shopping". Shopping being the female sort, which means specifically scrutinizing every single blouse, shirt, skirt, jeans, shoes and bags in detail, sticking like sugar candy in every single shop, and having to be literally pulled out.
Personally? I dislike shopping. Very very much. Unless it's things that interest me. I know it's hypocritical that I can spend hours in a library or bookshop, or anything with loads of accessories, but otherwise shopping should just be done the "manly" way. You need something, you go to the specific shop, look for it, buy it, and get the heck out of there. :3

We also went sightseeing in Den Haag on Thursday, which meant we finally saw something other than the insides of shops. Unfortunately, my relatives were not too interested in the historical background of places, so we kind of rushed it. Oh well, we might do it again after they leave, in more detail.

What then, you ask me, was so good about today?
I finally got to see members of my family is what.
This morning we went to my younger uncle of the two, whom we had last seen roughly two years ago. His two children, Nina and Aya (aged 14 and 10) hadn't seen us since our visit to Holland before tha last one, which was about four years ago. Man, have they grown!
I've always heard people saying that about me xDDD But I've never gotten to actually say it about anyone. Pretty special, this is. Also, I feel old ;-;

We had lunch there, which was very.. interesting, to say the least. See, my uncle is not so much a talker. You literally have to pull words out of his mouth. Keep on asking, or he'll keep his mouth shut tight. Strong and silent type? His kids are much like him. It took us a while, but we influenced them enough to actually have them chasing my brother with lots of squeals and giggles for about five minutes. Boisterous much?

On the way back, we visited one of my personally favourite cousins in hospital. She has CF (Cystic Fibrosis), which is a chronic lung disease. Things haven't been going so well for her these past few years, but last Monday things got even worse.
She has been on the national Transplantation waiting list for about two years now? Or well, I'm not certain about the time, but she's been on there for a while. Her doctors have been trying to get her on the High Urgent list for transplantations several times already, but up till now she was always "too well" for it to be highly urgent, even when things went crappy.

Now, however, stuff has downspiralled since this last weekend quickly, she got a lung bleeding and caught a cold (which though not dangerous normally, is a torture for CFers) .
To cut a long story short, her doctors decided to skip the whole national High Urgency list, and her name is now officially down for the High Urgent International. Which means she'll be the first (together with others on the same -short- list) of the whole of West Europe to get new lungs when suitable ones come in.
Being on that list brings mixed feelings. Partially it means something's finally happening, she's been waiting for a long while. On the other hand there's the fact that she's now so bad she met up to the high standards of that International list at all, which sucks hard.

ANYWAYS. We went to see one of my favourite cousins today (Tamara). Which I'm glad about, I missed her, as I miss her twin [Judith] (whom I haven't seen yet, but probably will, soon enough).
When we went home, we ate, and then their younger sister[Susanne], the third of my favourite cousins (Gosh, they're all from the same family?! Ah, oui, haven't I told you? They're my favourite relatives, parents and children. So now you know~ ) came for a short while, with her very cool boyfriend[Jelco]. And this is me being critical, so hey. He's coo'.

When they were about to leave, my aunt and cousin came back (they were out with the son of my Egyptian uncle, who lives here) with that cousin. Am I still making sense, or are the number of cousins finally getting to you? xD
There's tons I never mention, so don't you dare complain ;D Rawr.
Anyways, this cousin [Hamada] had taken them out the whole day, because he missed his Egyptian family (he's been living here for.. 6 years now?). Which suited us just fine of course, they with their relatives (ours too but eh) and we with ours. Dad came home from work and it was a Full House.
So Susanne and Jelco left, and Hamada stayed and chatted for a while before leaving as well, and we were back to a total of seven.

And now I feel entirely exhausted, but totally content at seeing so many loved ones in one day. (Meanly as that sounds, I just mean my dutch relatives)

Oh, just one more thing I need to mention before finally stopping teh rambling:
Thursday, after we came back from playing tourists, my very first friend ever came by. Janine has known me since we moved here 18 years ago (since I was 3) and we've been played together all out childhood. Then we also ended up in the same class, and didn't split up till I left that school to attend a year of Internation Education to learn some English before going to Egypt with just Dutch on my resume. xD
Funny thing with her is that no matter how long we don't talk, whenever we meet up it's like we've never been apart. She hasn't changed a bit either, in the two years that I haven't seen her in. That's positive, in a way, because I know what to expect. xD

That's it for today.
I'll try to post more often so that the posts don't get this long anymore.
Pictures later, haven't even uploaded them to my laptop yet ;D

xxx
The Gypsy.

End of week one

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone

What's up with time flying even here?
I've done a lot of things though. Haven't been at home a whole day yet.
Not planning to, either. I'll go for a short walk if I can't think of anything else.

Lots of moodswings, almost all of them not-good. I don't want to talk about it though, it's a waste of time and energy.

What happened I do want to mention?

Saturday I went for a walk and found myself walking into a free concert, just like that. Got flirted with by a couple of gangster like figures o.o;; ..

Yesterday my aunt and cousin came from Egypt. They slept the whole morning, as did everyone else, so I had the ground floor to myself for some good hours.
Then after showing them a bit around the place, around the house and such, we had a ten-minute birthday bash for my aunt whose birthday was the day before. Cake, presents and singing included in the ten minutes.

Today me and sis took my cousin to something called a child's farm. Which is basically a place with farm animals little kids can come visit and feed and pet and whatnot. Really cool place, seeing as I still love animals, I don't mind people staring at me just because I'm not a four year old. Oh well~ My cousin was afraid of practically every animal there.. Even the rabbits o.o
Weird, eh? She pinched my arm in fright so many times I figured we better leave before it'd start turning blue xD
Then we went home only to get ready for more walking.
Enjoy teh piccies?





Is teh biiiiig bunnies.
Very very big.

Uhmmm. Surrounded with les goats?
lol





See goatsies?
This is called Bread.
Bee Are Ee Eh Dee.
Buh-red.




Because Gypsy is a horse fanatic!
*luffs teh pony*





This be teh cutest guinea pig there was!
Yes, I luffs that too ;D

xxx
The Gypsy

Oh boy xD

Sometimes, I cave right in (’Times I cave right in)
But this fight you have to win (This time we have to win)
And your songs you love to sing
May your dreams forever live

Heatwave alarm. Big time.
Definitely not as hot as in Egypt, I know. But still hot enough.
I mean I'm here to avoid heat, partly xD

Have not been at home all day any day since we came.
Not even after I broke my foot xD
Grocery shopping, other shopping, markets, flea markets, bike rides, and today, job hunts.
Within a week I got a new watch, a pair of gorgeous boots, and four books. Huzzah.

I'm missing my friends. Chatting, as well as seeing those I have irl.
Having withdrawal symptoms again, I start talking to myself a lot when I'm feeling lonely.
Today I even had this lil breakdown. Just hope I'll be over it soon, I don't like being depressed.

Oh!
Actually drew sumfink today, first time in three months?
I mean actual pencil and paper.
Can't post it yet.

xxx
The Gypsy