One down, five to go.

Exams have officially started. *rings some sort of Exam bell*
Three weeks of ickiness, stress, worry, either lack of appetite or too much of it, and plenty of headaches.
Funny thing is: seeing as these are my "last exams ever", I'm not complaining much. Maybe some day when I'm stressed out at my job I'll wish I just had exams every day.
Last exams ever are between quotation marks, seeing as I have no clue if I might not take up more classes at some point xP Right now I'm thinking a job first, think about what I want to do permanently later.

Anyways, novel exam went alright. The questions came really limited, so that even if you've got a lot to say about the novel itself, you can't say anything to the question. So not satisfied with either questions or my own answers, but at least if I do this much in every exam I'll have at least passed this term, which is as much as I can ask, really.

It smells really weird here right now. ~sniffs~
Not bad. But I can't place it.
~follows her nose~
Later!

xxx
The Gypsy

To put it simply:

I miss my friends.

I've been too busy to even study, these last couple of weeks.
But what I seriously miss is a good intelligent witty conversation.
I need those, they keep me alive. My friends do.
Without them I drown into either numbness or depression.

My mind's reeling right now.
Would make no sense if I typed any of it out, it's all random and half-baked.
Yes, si, da, oui, ja, ﻧﻌﻢ ... I'm going crazy~

More visits.

"There is certainly no purpose in remaining in the dark,
Except long enough to clear from the mind
The illusion of having ever been in the light."

-T.S.Eliot

Last night, we visited his once-upon-a-time-best-friend.
Or maybe it still is his best friend, in a way, seeing as they are able to pick up where they left off as if there hasn't been half a year of barely any communication between them.
The friend's daughter got married around two summers ago, and gave birth to a baby girl last summer, and she was also there when we went there yesterday, and so dad now has been implying I should get pregnant soon, too. Or that I already am, dunno how he figured that out, but I suppose it's all just wishful thinking~

Afetr that we visited the wife of dad's deceased uncle, which was far more depressing. He also died last February, along with that ex-neighbour of ours. I actually heard for the first time how he died, who had been with him that day, and his last words. Lots of tears from both his wife and daughter, and his sons (or those present) were trying very hard to not cry.

Today, we visited that ex-neighbour, and again got told from the widow herself how he had been that day, what he said, and what he did and where and how exactly he was positioned when he died.

A couple of years ago we also had a "death period", as I call them, where loved ones seem to drop dead in bunches. I dislike those period a lot, but more so, I fear them.
I'm just hoping it's over now, and won't be so vicious as I fear it will be.

Dad, mum and bro went to more visits, me and sis came home to try and study something. Our exams start this Saturday, and we've done a poor little bit of work. If I succeed this term it definitely won't be because of all the hard work I put into it~

xxx
The Gypsy

Cairo

" When the sun shines we'll shine together,
Told you I'll be here forever,
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath, Imma stick it out to the end"

Haha, it's been quiet here for a few days, eh?
That's just cause Cairo, or the places I went there, had no wifi =P
I'm going to be as light-hearted as possible about a not-so-good trip, so I won't be telling all that much~

We left early Saturday morning, without much sleep, in sis' car. Me, my dad and my brother.
Dropped by my aunt's for a short time, for them (Aunt, uncle, two cousins) to get ready and depart with us. Neck-to-neck race to Cairo, it was. Would've given mum a heart attack, I'm positive.

Cous went to take her exam, dad saw to some business of his own, and I and bro sat in the car melting and catching sun strokes in an alarming heat.
Afterwards I went to hospital, got tests that made me aching and queasy, of which I won't even know any results straight away.
Then we met up with my relatives again, and we (they) ate somewhere where there were actually trees. (Which says nothing, it was as steaming hot there as anywhere else, the grass was positively yellow instead of green).

My relatives went home, and we went to dad's friend, who /always/ pushes us to eat a lot more than we're capable of, which doesn't really ever surprise any of us, seeing each of them could easily eat an elephant per meal. I look unhealthily skinny next to them, or they unhealthily obese. We're both critical of each others' weights, and agree to disagree on that. To be fair, the oldest boy is neither over nor underweight, and looks decent. He's the only one I can have some intelligent conversation with in that house, too, so yeah.

Sis and mum came by train to arrive around 1 am, and instead of coming home at 2 am and going to bed, they (dad's friend & co.) decided they were hungry enough to go and eat twelve pizzas at some shady place. I couldn't eat more than a third of my own, they were so big and greasy.

Then we finally went home and to bed around 5 am, and were roused three hours later to go to the Dutch Embassy for our passports that had expired earlier this year. Took ages, because it was so busy, and then finally left for Alexandria, away from the heatwave. We didn't actually go home immediately, but arrived long after dinner time on my aunt's doorstep, requesting of her to feed us (them).

After this sleepless, hot, and for me foodless trip, I was dead enough to just curl up for twelve hours and actually sleep at least half that long. (I haven't slept for more than three hours a night for weeks, now, and that was double that)..
The only pictures I took were amongst the trees in that park thingy, but I'll upload them later cause I'm still feeling desperately queasy.
And I typed more than I thought I would ^^
Still not much studying getting done here.

xxx
The Gypsy

Death again

For the loved ones not living anymore.
May they rest in peace.

How can you stay out of touch with people you care about for so long they die and no one even tells you...

When we first came to live in Alexandria, we had the sweetest neighbours ever. An elderly lady and gentleman, nice, kind, caring. We moved twice, since, though we still live in the same neighbourhood.. That house is a ten-minute walk away..
And yet, we rarely see each other. Maybe once or twice a year..
And now it's been five months. And she called us.. Turns out her husband died last February.. Three days after her own sister died.. Man she must've been depressed..
And to think of the little things I complain about..
Just ick.
I need to go see her more often.. As long as I live here, I should..

Apart from that, I was already depressed after a heart to heart talk with dad.
And my ear hurts like hell, don't know why.

Yesterday I was at my newlyweds 'cousin's house, with the rest of the family.
It's getting a bit much.
Tomorrow I'm probably going to Cairo for two days.
More time not studying.
Go me.

xxx
The Gypsy.

Bugger

Like I said.. yesterday, a year ago, my cat died. About a week earlier she stopped eating, and a few days later she started turning yellow. So, without so much as a professional opinion, the vet within me knew it was a liver thing.
A week ago, our janitor became sick. Liver problems. And guess what?
He passed away last night...

Me, I'm trying to make it into a symbolic meaning, something great, or something awful...
It can't actually be a coincidence, can it?
Same period. Same organ troubles. Same deathday...

His wife woke me up this morning, screaming her lungs out.. I couldn't actually place her voice, but I knew it sounded familiar, as far as a distorted hysterical voice can sound familiar.. I feel so sorry for her. And their two kids.
Yesterday, I went downstairs and gave them a big piece of birthday cake, asked how he was, and she said he was having some pain, and they had called the doctor who told them to give him a shot of painkillers, and that he should come for another checkup in the morning.. I even cheerfully called out to him that he had to get better..

Life is horrid, especially around Death..

Apart from that, today's been alright.
Did not leave the house at all (That's rare, lately xD) and actually been able to chat with muh bff I've been missing for a while. So woot to that.

On an entirely different note: I should start studying.
Like, really. Because exams are hella close, and I've done absolutely nothing.
I just hope my days won't be so packed from now on, till after the exams.

xxx
The Gypsy

Presents rock.

"Out of tune and out of place again
the same old crowd, the same expression
never coming back again"

So I got presents for my 21st birthday after all. (Not from siblings or parents, mind)
Today, two days late, my whole family showed up. Within no time they had decorated the place, and my uncle (who shares the bakery with dad) got me such a BIG cake.. Even though I'm a pie person, really, I appreciated that a lot. Food enough for all, and same with drinks. That's the most important thing when hosting, nay?

Anyways, when family is over I rarely have any fun.

They're not "my kind of people", whatever that means. They're human. ~tilts head~ I alien. ~nod~

But that doesn't really matter... cause I got presents! Wooohooo! xD
Little things, really. But that's just fine. It's cute. Most of it anyways.
Got some clothes (for inside the house & outside), accessories (necklaces, bracelets, and one gorgeous belt), a bag, some kind of frame thingy, and most beautiful of all: a small white-gold flower pendant. Oh, and something else, but you'll have to ask me over IM if you're interested in knowing, I don't know about posting it here xD I'll get snarky and that's not fair, it's the thought behind me that counts~

(what's so interesting to them here are
the wedding pictures on the compy)

Drove some relatives home.. Came home, gave the janitor's wife a big piece of cake, helped clean up, and tried on the clothes. Most fit to perfection, so I got the "Evil Eye" from my sister, because clothes are usually either too big or too small for her.
The Evil Eye being an Arabic superstition thingy, like jealousy, which is like a curse to whoever you're jealous of, so something bad happens to them/it. Here I used it as a joke, mind. Nothing bad happened to me. Yet.

On a related yet completely different note: I need to stop eating so much. Dad cooked today, and he piles up plates so full x.x And I don't know. Guess I've been trained to empty my plate, so, yeah. Then with the cake I didn't even like, and soda for the first time in a long time.. Been feeling over-stuffed all day, and I keep eating. Makes no sense. Not even craving food. So.. o.o

~curls up, and yawns~

Today is also a year ago that Pluisje died.
I miss her so much it hurts.
Ik hou van je, watje. [/dutch]

xxx
The Gypsy